HiDuP mEsTiLaH BrAni TeriMe KeNyatAaN

poem by a fren....nice???

2004-11-17T05:54:00.000+08:00

scream and tug at me, while i run
away from you, away from them
away from anger, away from fear
but when the pain subsides, your still here
i try so hard to cut the ties
that bind us alongside all your lies
i push you away but yet i return
because it is only your flame that can burn
me, till i bake crisp in your rage
yet it is only your body that can engage
in such immoral acts of lust i cannot reveal
though it tingles with passion, my lips remain sealed
how can i be apart from you
when i constantly reminisce the sweet things we do
my body is aching, yearning for your touch
so tell me how i can leave, when i love you so much?

2004-10-15T16:18:00.000+08:00

danny and harith...my sista's son...

rInDu....

2004-10-09T16:20:00.000+08:00

Bila Rindu

Ruffedge

Di keheningan malam

Termenung ku berseorang

Tak lena mata dipejam

Terdengar suara terngiang

Suara merdu yang di sayang

Bagai kau didepan mata

Ku capai tapi tak kenal

Sukarnya memendam rasa Ingin kuluahkan kata

Bila rindu terkenangmu siang terasa sayu

Syahdunya jiwaku bila malam makin kelam

Jauh terbang diriku melayang

Aku rindu sentuhanmu kurasa sayu

Inginkan jiwamu selubungi jiwa ini bawaku dalam pelangi

Melepasi segala hati ini

Jauh angan kulena kurasa kita bersama kau bawaku ke sana

Ke alam kisah yang lama kenangan di dalam jiwa

Bila tersedar semula di sisiku kau tiada

Sukarnya kupendam rasa ingin kuluahkan semua

Sesungguhnya kita mestilah

Wujudkan sefahaman dan hormatmu

Hormati ikhlas kasih Makin tak ada bertemu semula

Awan yang mencas semesta

Menyampaikan pesan kesunyian kanda sendiri

Kesepian yang menyelubungi hari-hariku

Disajikan doa-doaku kerana rindu

Yang menanti kau datang dan pergi seperti mimpi-mimpiku, fantasiku

Bukan dongeng lagi sayup kedengaran

Di sisi cuping, di setiap corong, lorong yang lohong

Benar!

Ku tak bohong bila hati menyanyi

Bila rindu terkenangmu siang terasa sayu

Syahdunya jiwaku bila malam makin kelam

Aku merindu sentuhanmu kurasa sayu

Inginkan jiwa selubungi jiwa ini bawaku dalam pelangi

Melepasi batas

Oh bila rindu terkenangmu sayangku terasa sayu

Syahdunya jiwaku bila malam makin kelam

Jauh terbang diriku melayang

Aku rindu sentuhanmu kurasa sayu (Kurindukan sentuhanmu)

Inginkan jiwamu selubungi jiwa ini bawa ku dalam pelangi

Melepasi batas diri ini

"hey people..what's up men...haiz..dont know what to write la..been busy with my project..haiz..still not done yet...ermm..oh ya..the above lyrics..so sorrie for non malay who read my blog..its about missing someone..haiz..this lately had been dreaming of the same gal..wheneva i woke up,i felt that i missed her so much..too bad,i cant figure out who is that gal..hope to find her soon...so,see ya when i see ya...signing off.... "

EpHuL!!!

bOnJOur pEoPLe!!

2004-09-20T04:38:00.000+08:00

bOnJOur pEoPLe!!

2004-09-20T03:58:00.000+08:00

hie ya..been 5 days i didnt update my blog..nothing much to write abt ler..ermm..let me see...

15th sep...
mama..i'm sorrie..i had to lie to you..i told u i've project to do but actually i'm playing soccer in school..not that i wanna lie to u but i really really wanna play soccer..i'm sorrie mama...yeap yeap..was happy to meet my fren to play soccer..had so much fun..haiz..due to the weight increase,cepat pancit..haiz..got to workout oreadi..
how to lose weight...after play soccer,chill at al amin..tried not to eat..but cant see the leftover food..so,i ate some...had ice milo..chill out and had a lot of fun and lots and lots of laughter..mamat had his most malu moment i guess...had a pic of him pose in "bapok" style and the "Sahabat" took his pic and put on the menu..hehehehe...

16th sep...
wish i can play soccer..but too bad..had my final theory..go in the class without reading the book and with nothing inside my head..how to pass like that..i see the people over there so semangat read the book..me action cool like da terror like that..padehal padehal...hahaha...

17th sep...
help up my mama preparing the kuih as my brader late for school..then went back to sleep as it is still early to go to school.plan to wake up at 830 am but woke up at 11 am..haiz..class ended oreadi...what onli ah ephul....when to ia class with sleepy head..thought of studying the quiz,but due to my laziness,i didnt study..lucky i remember how to do it...after school,i watched the movie "FOREST GUMP"..so touching...haiz..the story line so familiar sey...but dont know the ending gonna be the same or not..dont know la...didnt realise it was oreadi 8..got work at 11..rushed and reached home at 9..1030 went to work..so tired..but what to do..gotta work...

18th sep...
came back from work,so tired..when straight to bed..gotta wake up around 1..promise with my frenz meeting them up..so damn tired,i overslept til 3..gotta meet zul at 315..die die die..late late late..surely missy choc and my bestfren gonna shout..hahaha..whenever wanna meet them up,sure late...sorry gals...not habit ler..but just couldnt help it..happen unexpectedly ler...
suppose to meet missy choc and bestfren at 330..end up meeting them at 4..when bowling and had dinner at mac..hahaha..lots and lots of laughter...hey..i'm not shy...just the way i eat is that way..dont believe ask my fren..especially shafie..used to be teased while i'm eating...but bestfren..u're the 1st person i see ketuk fries before eating..what onli ah u..hahahaha..oh ya..me too didnt expect zul to be so peramah..when i knew him at westmall,he is peramah but not like he is on that sat..hahahaha...now i know who is the real zul...oh ya..abt the bowling..hahahah..plan oready with zul..1st game play play..2nd game then we're back to business...hahahahahaha......then after that,we went to lot 1..too bad..missy choc got to go...walking at lot 1 hopefully got to find something for my buddy's present..but too bad...nothing to buy..haiz..got to work again at 11...reached home at 9,rushed off to work....

19th sep...
finished work,meet my dad up...before that,i meet my uncle..haiz..what a luck..early morning kene scold for drinking redbull in the morning..then went to coffee shop get some drink and head off to cemetry to help my uncle up..many cemetry we went and clean..the pebble i've help to carry was pretty heavy though it state that it was only 25 kg..i dont so...went to my late grandmama and late uncle cemetry..heard my aunt and uncle talk abt them...so touching,,i think it had been hard for my dad...at the age of 3,my grandmama passed away together with my uncle...she died upon delivering my last uncle..and my uncle last for only 1 day or 2 of this world..too bad..the pic of my grandmama was destroyed by my grandpa..with a reason,he loved her so much..and indeed,he suffered alot...haiz...
spent til 12 at the cemetry..so peaceful..so quiet...yesterday,i had so much fun,filled with laughter..today,my day fill will peacefullness and quiet..my dad told me and my brader.."bile ayah da takde nanti,tak payah la hias dgn batu batu..mahal..tapi satu je ayah minta...jagela kubur ayah dgn mama sebaik mungkin..ziarahla rumah ayah dgn mama slalu..jgn lupe kubur nenek dgn saudare mare kau..."
my dad's word made me to tears..i know promises are meant to be broken..but ayah,i'll do my best to do what u said...
after that,had lunch at noorlin and headed home..suppose to follow my dad to tahlil but i'm too tired to wake up...my dad is an understanding person,he let me sleep...after he return from the tahlil with my brader,we went to my grandparent (my mama side) place.my grandpa was sick..really sick..he dont even have the energy to walk.me and my sepupu had to help him out to change..and also had to carry him to my uncle's car to sent him to the hospital...in the end,he was admitted to the hospital..haiz...2nd time in abt 1 month...

OoPSs!!!

2004-09-15T01:52:00.000+08:00

ermm..had been a week since i last update my blog..been pretty busy and tired lately la..sorrie sorrie..haiz...lot of thing happen to me within this 14 days.1stly,my friend's adidas boot which cost 200 bucks was stolen!!!hey thief out there..thanks men..but do be careful to wash ur leg every second or it might rot if u didnt..!!!

it all happen on 3rd sep..
morning morning woke up so semangat wanna play soccer in the evening..open the door to take the boot but found out that it was gone!!was so furious til my mom was kinda timid and told me dont be so angry..hehehe...sorrie mama....haiz..wanted to play soccer badly,i went to queensway to buy a new boot which cost me 100 bucks!!!haiz....what a luck!!!

8 sep!!!!
LATE FOR SKOOL....slept late the nite before...chatted with a new friend...miss choc..had a nice conversation with her that time..knew her thru my bestfren...hey missy...nice chatting with ya!!! nah..dont blame u for being late..haiz..lucky my dad had the company lorry with him...got chance of being to school on time...reached at jurong east at 8,rushed to the mrt in order not to late!!wtf!!i didnt bring my wallet..not a single cent with me that time..walao..like wanna cry sey...called my mama and told her i'm not going to class and will be coming home by taxi..reached home,continue sleeping.had the intention to go for the next class at 11 but i woke up late..really late..at 5..the class had ended long ago..haiz..missed my fav class..i woke up also thanks to my mama nagging..if not,comfirm wake up the next day..

10 sep..my brader's bday..
enjoy ourself at west coast together with my family and my kakak kakak...really enjoyed it althougth i'm really really tired..didnt buy him a present though..not enough money la brader..hope next yr can buy u present...

11 sep..
haiz..remember the fall of wtc of usa??hahaha..i do still remember it..had another celebration with my family on my brader's bday..like he said,his bday last for a month..hahaha..what he thinks??hari raya is it...hahahaha...wat onli ah u brader...
we went to endose our passport..my family will be going to kl celebrating my dad bday on 24 sep..in the other hand,attend my cousin's wedding..too bad cant follow them..ayah..mama..ifa..ajim...jalan baik baik tau..ingat along and angah pat singapore tau..balik tau...haiz..gonna miss my family...especially on my dad's bday..oh ya..back to 11 sep..after endose our passport,we went to beach rd...hahaha..bought my pouch and few stuff there..mama complained that during my brader bday also i want something..alah mama...later my thing dont have la...cannot find..furthermore,not everyday we go beach rd.had the opportunity,might as well grab it...
then after that,we went to east coast to chill with my cousin...after east coast,we went west coast to meet my aunt there..then to noorlin to eat at jurong west...time flies very the fast..hahaha..i'm late for work!!!!!rushed home,take my stuff,straight to work..imagine how tired i am...

13 sep...
meet my bestfren and missy choc up to buy a gift for my fren...my bestfren left me and missy choc in hurry..never mind u..ade lorri ade bus..ade hari leh balas...me and missy choc went rounding the lot 1.had 3 stuff on mind..haiz..what a luck..in the end,all the stuff we didnt buy..the sweater is nice..not got no size...the tribal shirt is cool..but too bad...he'll not wear it..the another 1,but too plain ah..haiz...dont know la..
then we end up going to limbang to buy my fish food..reach there,the shop is closing..draw my money and went back to the shop..walao!!!they closed the shop..haiz..how am i gonna ans to my dad!!sure kene one..nevermind la..other day also got..sorrie fish..no dinner for u tonight..
went eating with missy choc..finish eating at 2140..oOpS!!she's late...i'm really really sorrie missy...walk with her to her blk...for the bus stop is near her home..might as well walk with her...skali saw her father...i feel so afraid and become so small like rat..hehehe..no offense missy..i knew ur dad intention..dont worry..wont think negatively..my dad did that too...if i'm late,he will wait for me even at bus stop...;)

14 sep...
had class at 8...did our assignment...finished it late and late for the next class...world issue class..gerek nye class...world issue class had lecture for the 1st hour..then we combined class and play monopoly created by our lecturer..thanks to my lecturer..we were broken into groups..haiz..my group is fun but my partner is LAME!!!walao..cannot tahan him...so gundu ah..explain how play the game also he still dont understand...and the best part is,i didnt get a chance to make a decision...WHATEVA la ehh partner...
finished class straight away go home and get ready for work..haiz..not just reached home from work..so tired...

ermm..till here i end...hope to update my blog again...see ya when i see ya..!!!!
take care...!!!;)

i'M vErY sIck....

2004-09-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

i'm sick..havent been sleeping for the pass few days...due to the common test and project...yesterday was a bad day..haiz..my group members forgot abt the due date which is yesterday.all of us rushed.i didnt sleep for the nite before trying my best to finish my part..til 4 am,and i could not take it,i take a nap.hopefully i'll wake up at 6 but i overslept and woke up at 7.haiz..late for skool..jumped out of my bed,bath and rush to skool.fortunately,i made it on time..class start at 8.
hey..its 10 am and its presentation time..was late for that class because of the class before it end late..enter the class,see all my group member dressed up except for me..oh shit!!i forgot we need to dress up..settle myself down.after that,kelvin,my fren, asked me if i finished my stuff..
YES OF COURSE i've done it..haiz..only to know that our presentation is next week..wak kao!!!!!!!waste my time sia...never sleep just to finish..the best part of all,the group decided to change the idea of the presentation..what the f**k!!!!what a waste..and now,i'm sick!!can somebody pity me please...i'm eating porridge now..
got to work just now at 6.i really cant tahan.ask khairul to replace me,he cant,he had to finish his project.as Juli to replace me..her reason for cannot help me is she had to go for company check up.i didnt know private check up took u the whole day JULI...WHATEVA!!!!ask renie to replace,she cant.she had training..ask keller,she finished class at 6..too bad,got to go to work..
reached at work,my partner seem to be ok..but after few hours working with me,he began to couch and sneeze..is it because of me he became like that??i'm sorrie dude..really really sorrie..
now,i really cannot tahan and i wanna sleep!!!!!will try to type something tommorow...take care..see ya when i see ya..ciaoZZ!!!adioS!!!

pUZzLeD!!!!!!!!

2004-08-31T03:36:00.000+08:00

DID U EVER FALL FOR SOMEONE U KNOW U SHOULDNT?
TRY HARD TO FIGHT YOUR FEELINGS, BUT U JUST COULDN'T?
U FALL DEEPER WITH EACH PASSING DAY
BUT TRY TO HIDE IT IN EVERY POSSIBLE WAY
SHE'S ONLY A FRIEND, AND NOTHING ELSE
THAT'S THE LIE U KEEP TELLIN YOURSELF
U KEEP ON SAYIN SHE'S JUST A FREN
BUT DEEP INSIDE, YOU'RE FALLING IN LOVE
U GET SO GIDDY WHEN U MEET HER EYES
BUT KEEP REMINDING YOURSELF IT ISN'T RIGHT
A SIMPLE GLANCE TURNS INTO A STARE
BUT U PRETEND THAT U DON'T CARE
IT'S "NOT RIGHT" FOR U TWO TO BE
IS THAT WHY U HIDE IT SO NO ONE CAN SEE?
BUT HOW LONG WILL U PRETEND?
KEEP LYING SHE'S JUST A FRIEND?
PERHAPS YOUR FEELINGS U CAN NEVER SHOW
PERHAPS IT'S "WRONG" FOR HER TO KNOW
YOUR FRIENDSHIP CAN'T BE RISKED OVER THIS
SO BEING HER GUY IS AN IMPOSSIBLE WISH...

yo peoplez!!!!!!!!

2004-07-19T18:54:00.000+08:00

sorry guy...i knew i didnt update my blog for a very very long time.u guys are complaining already..haha..sorrie dude...
still chilling in school now..dont know when wanna go home..haiz..waiting for a fren to call me...dont know whether that fren of mine gonna call or not..haiz...stomach is so empty.imagine..ate only cup noodles yesterday nite and havent eat anything since then..so damn boring men..
just now morning,came back from work straight away bath,change and took my lab top and go skool..havent have a nice sleep too..my eyes are becoming heavier and heavier...
guys...don't la flood my tag board with all that kinda msg...what onli ar u all..ok la..til now..dont know when i'll update my blog again..oh ya!!!next sunday i'll fighting with IMRAN again...haiz..what a luck...hope i can perform...take care guyz!!!!!!!!!!!

oh makcik ku..jgn la angry angry....

2004-06-20T08:58:00.000+08:00

mak nah mak nah(my aunt),dont la angry angry..tomorrow bday(19062004)..muahahaha...
that was on friday nite..make her heart boil..ermm..tak sengaje actually.or should i said,she start it 1st..haiz..whateva la..
1st incident,she ask me to take nangke at my granpa place.just reach my aunt place that time da kene perintah tu ni..haiz..told her to ask my cousin(her fav anak sedare) who has bike living just next door to my grandpa to sent it for her...so many alasan she gave..abg kau balik lambat la..penat la..itu la ini la..abeh aku tak penat la??abg kluar dgn matair boleh,anta barang takleh la??
2nd incident,the stove..best location to place the stove was by the stairs.the corridor is narrow,and every floor has lift,guess noone should be using the stair.place the stove there,then wait for the ayam to come.skali she kluar,see the stove at the stairs and start yelling why the stove over there la ape la..walao..cannot angkat sey..ape lagi i say la..."ape mak nah nak boy letak pat tgh tgh corridor??"..my cousin add "takmu tgh tgh corridor,dalam lift skali.."she's so piss of by us and said "sudah la korang..aku taknak bebual dgn korang lagi"..muahahaha...makcik aku merajuk...buruk sak...should take her picture that time..muahahaha....since then,she never talk to me until the majlis end..muahahaha....

my SISTA is backz!!!!

2004-06-18T02:02:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey..looks who's back..my sista is back..really really miss her men..after so long she merajuk,finally, she's back..calling me brader..how happy i am that time..like wanna cry...sista sista..i promise takkan sakit kan hati u lagi...thats a promise from ya brother..really happy u are back sis...;)

sorrie guys!!!

2004-06-17T14:14:00.000+08:00

sorrie many many people...da lamer tak update..been very very busy la lately..reach home late..then tired,then malas nak masuk net la..also,had been sometimes did chat with all my fren at msn..haiz...had been a sad month also this month..cant play so ngee ann silat ivp comp...so sad...my old injury also stike back..what a blow.cant really train full blust..and also my weight..had always been a problem..haiz...PSK is just around the corner..dont know will make it or not..traning pun tak seberape..but my main priority is the president cup on sep later..will try my very best for that comp...hopefully,the injury heal fast..haiz...people...i promise will update my blog as slalu as possible..OK....;)

a very very very bad day..

2004-06-03T02:56:00.000+08:00

haiz..what a bad day i had..had to go to indoor stadium to work..wah..so far from my home..haiz..it was a last minute notice..what to to..when u got to go,u got to go..responsibility..what to do..haiz..wake up already late..got to rush in order not to be late..1st impression is important u know..haiyo..reach kallang at 1530..just nice as what i thought..haiz..wait for the bus 11 until 1545,still got time..got onto the bus,ask the bus driver where to alight as it was my 1st time taking that bus."5 station u alight.."replied the driver..saw the indoor stadium already but no sign from the driver..i thought havent reach..skali he bring me one round ah back to the depot..alamak..peng sey..quarrel with the driver til i'm late for work!!run from the depot to the indoor stadium..fuyoo!!so tiring..skali keje..like wanna die sey..bring the goods up and down..and the goods were all damn bloody HEAVY!!water babe..imagine ah..then when going home time..fuyoo..bapokz!!changing but he or she or whateva shit never close the door..so paisey sey..muahahaha...going home time!!waiting for the bus lak..aiyoo..macam buah tak jatuh sey...the bus schedule put 2337 is the last bust,waited from 2315 to 2345 and the bus tak jelme jelme..comfirm mrt finish already..ask my parent to fetch me..tu pun kene lecture..haiz..what a day....

oh shit!!!

2004-05-31T16:38:00.000+08:00

oh shit!!suppose to go out to beach road to lepakz but i just woke up..paling lambat aku bangun hari nie..so damn bloody sleepy..havent sleep four 3 bloody days..guyz..i'm so so so sorrie for not joining u guys..haiz...
feel so strange now.to be exact,this few days..dreaming of all sortz of nonsense dream adn stuff....strange and eerie feeling...WTF men..what had happen to me??!!

1st time...

2004-05-31T02:25:00.000+08:00

finally,got my blog...not sure of how to do it..main hentam saje..entah betul entah tidak..sebat aje la..TESTING TESTING....